There is no past.
We have memories, but memories do exist now. There is no root in some time that once was and is no more, there is no absolute fact that we can contact and verify.
There is a now. We can assume order in actions, we can use some supposed sequentiality in the world, but that is just a tool for life, it is not hard-reality.
We do have histories, but those are whole into our own beings. Now.
I wanna see you learn to live with that.